I've been struggling with what I want to do and what I feel like I should be doing for way too long now. It's become a very overwhelming problem in most aspects of my life but I'll spare you all the other details.
Truth is, I think up a lot of projects that will more than likely never see the light of day because I can't help but feel like ultimately I'm the only one who wants them so why wast my time making them. For example, some of them are related to video games which just adds to the struggle. With my little animals I have a better idea of who my audience is. When it comes to some of the game related stuff I want to make, I'm not sure. Within the craft community it seems like unless it's 8-bit and made of perler beads people aren't going to care. Why that matters to me so much, I don't know. Especially because that's not the kind of stuff I have any interest in making. (I'll save my giant bucket of perler beads for something else, thank you.)
I think that is where part of the problem comes in. I think that I should be making stuff I know I can sell. My brain can't seem to handle the thought of making something that isn't custom and selling it for more than $20. I've just started working on some small paper embroideries and am already second guessing whether or not to put them in my shop. If for no other reason then they are different and I'm not sure if anyone would want them.
I've been way too unhappy in my work for a while now and just trying to ignore it. It's nice and it's easy to be comfortable but not when it's making you unhappy. I feel like it's been pretty evident via my shop and flickr if nothing else. Not much work has been happening. But let me tell you what, I have really mastered the art of thinking about maybe possibly sometime starting something great that I really want to make. I'm sooooo good at that.